Turtle Love

She was looking back on her recent track record with guys that she met on dating sites. She was striking out. She thought that she was falling in love with the last three.  She should know better at her age.  Or perhaps she just can’t control what her heart does.  That’s actually more the case.  It falls hard and fast.  It just hasn’t met another that can do the same.  The real question for someone is this…Can you be open and vulnerable without putting up all kinds of restrictions and rules about how love should look? Can you be open to exploring where the heart just naturally wants to go? Can you be spontaneous? Can you be truthful? Can you express yourself when you feel that yearning, that longing, that opening up?  Can you ask for what you want?

Perhaps this time, when half the world is afraid to step outside their door and the other half thinks it is all a false alarm, there is a blessing that will come out of it all.  Perhaps this will either slow me down in my crazy, fast paced loving, and make me get to know someone inside and out before physically ever meeting. It is too easy for me to jump into the physical instantly.  Fall for someone that I’m physically attracted to.  Perhaps falling for their personality and learning more the ins and outs of their nature is a good thing to preface the actual physical connection.

I know I am an unusual woman.  I like sex more than the average female.  I want it every day.  I want romance, I want teasing, I want to slip into that sexual play at the drop of a hat.  I want someone who can’t stop thinking of how they are going to seduce me next.  I want to find someone that is equally as sexual, and playful as myself.  I want to touch and be touched everywhere and all the time. I also need my down time, my alone time, my quite introspective, meditative time.  I recharge when I write, when I walk in nature. I want to be with someone who treats their body like a temple.  They care what they put into it, food, drinks, exercise and love.  It all needs to be a conscious choice, one that is leaving them better off after than before.

Perhaps this is a time of turtle love.  Slow and steady wins the race.  Nobody ever said it was a race.  Love is fast.  Love is furious and I guess it can work in slow mysterious ways as well.